“Broken things can become blessed things, if you let God do the mending”
I could start this blog post in one of two ways.
I could break down in tears and say a million thank you’s as I have done in the past…
Or I could tell you what my plans are for the future and once again mention how truly grateful I am for every read, every comment, every person who’s visited my blog no matter if it was out of curiosity or simply because you were genuinely interested in my content.
If you didn’t know, I celebrated my 21st birthday on the 8th of August and I have never been so grateful and eager to start this new chapter in my life. My mom and dad keep thanking me for making my family proud, but it’s really me who should be thanking them for all they have provided for me, no matter how hard the situation was and being the best support system I could have ever asked for. I will always be your little girl, no matter how old I am.
For those who have been following my blog or YouTube channel, you would know that I mentioned that I was extremely unhappy for a long time. I lacked motivation, had no friends and I isolated myself so much that eventually I just fell into this dark space. Then in April of this year I came out of a 4 year relationship, losing not only my best friend but also my only friend at the time. I no longer keep in contact with him, but I truly wish him everything of the best for the future.
You see, at the time I had my heart broken I asked God “Why am I being punished?”. Little did I know that what I thought was a punishment, was truly the biggest blessing in disguise. Having to quickly make a plan of finding an alternative way to campus, I was blessed with a new friend, a new chapter and ultimately a new beginning. Nicole, if you’re reading this, I truly believe you are my guardian angel (you too, Tamzen x). One thing led to another and I eventually made even more friends, was forced to put myself out there and in turn the world started opening so many possibilities for me. In the time I started healing I found myself on a date with a very handsome British stud, who I still remain friends with to this day even though he has returned home.
Instead of going out even when I didn’t feel like it, I started channeling all my focus and energy into my YouTube channel which in the beginning, nobody would help me with. I have been uploading consistently every Friday for the past few months. In the process I have also started growing my subscriber count and working with companies who have been so nice to send me gifts, products to review and showing me love on my Instagram.
I’ve stamped my passport and left my country to visit the beautiful treasure which is Thailand and in the time, I just took every opportunity to grow and find myself while allowing God to fix my broken heart.
I always thought that “when one door closes, another one opens” was just someone trying to make you feel better about your horrible situation and trying to offer some sort of hope in your dark times. But wow, I have honestly experienced it in more ways than one.
So. What happens next?
To be honest, at this point I am just trying to focus on my studies while at the same time growing my blog and YouTube channel. At this point in time I don’t think I’m looking for a serious relationship. I’m just trying to enjoy my university experience and live life to the fullest. You see, a year ago the person I was would sit in the car alone and watch the university experience pass her by because she didn’t have any friends. Today, she looks forward to varsity because her friends are what helps her get through the long days. With only one year and a few months left of university before I graduate, I look forward to seeing what the future holds. I really want to find myself and continue to grow with God’s help, day by day. I still remember the days I prayed for the things I have now.
Once again, thank you to everyone who constantly show me support on my blog and YouTube channel. I will continue to create content my readers will enjoy and hope you are excited for what is still to come.
“I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you a much stronger person” – Rita Mero
Well, here’s to being 21. I hope the next few years are filled with nothing but laughter, late nights, good times, great memories and most importantly blessings and happiness. Cheers!